Love.

How can loving someone hurt so much?
Sometimes people hold on because they love too much they can't bear to let go.
Sometimes people let go not because they don't love anymore. It's because they love you too fucking much but yet have no idea how to carry on.
When one stops making effort, how the other party carry on?
Just when will it be the limit.
It's true when people say don't love too much.

Tribute to Mr LKY

(Photo credit: Facebook)

Our founding father, Mr Lee Kuan Yew, has passed away peacefully on 23 March 2015 at 3:18AM.

Although I'm not directly related to him, I still feel the pain when I woke up to the news of his death. As I scrolled through Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, they are all filled with news of LKY. I read but decided to stop. This feeling is too overwhelming. :'(

I don't know what to say but we really have to thank him for his contribution to Singapore. He gave up his life to build a beautiful nation for us- Singapore, a place we call HOME. As much as we feel like complaining about all the high cost of living standard here, stop and think, we advanced from a third world country to the first. Thank you, "Grandpa" Lee Kuan Yew, for giving us a safe place to live in.

I felt guilty for not queuing to pay my last respect to him due to being busy with work and queuing overnight would definitely make me a zombie at work. It's until the one entire week that I've learnt more about Mr Lee and family. I've never been interested in history before. For the later half of the week, I started following up on his news on Facebook, sharing posts about him, his love story etc..
This picture here breaks my heart into tiny pieces. Just one simple picture can portray the entire feeling. It's too overwhelming. :'(

Sir, you've done your best and all for Singapore, for us. It's time for you to reunite with Mrs Lee. :')

His love story with his wife is definitely the true definition of #relationshipgoals! I was feeling super emotional that I've posted emotional posts on Facebook. I cried on Saturday night after watching a video on an interview with PM LHL. He cried. I cried at the sight of him wiping his tears and being strong again to finish up the interview. It's so heart breaking I couldn't forget how hurt he looked.

Later on that week, this 17-year-old celebrity wannabe posted a video to criticise LKY. What is he trying to prove? Well he got the guts to do it, I see how he face his lawsuit. Without LKY, how can he get such a good education and use all the bombastic words in the video? Seriously just wanna get famous. But boy, please mind your manners. Politics aside, this man here is a father, a grandfather, a husband and a son to his parents. Needless to say, he's an elderly. He's like 5 times of your age and bravo, you have no basic respect?! Wasted 17 years of rice to raise you up. I must pity your parents. 

This boy is none other than AMOS YEE. If I didn't recall wrongly, he had quite an attitude problem a few years back too. No idea why Jack Neo engaged him in one of his movies. Yeah well done Amos, you're infamous now :)

(Photo credits from Facebook)

Chanced upon this on Facebook that other day. It was seen that there's purple light over the casket. Symbolizing some good aura. I was telling Masra about this and she mentioned that while she's present at the site queuing, she felt it too, she felt the aura. Through this one week, Singaporeans came together as one, helping one another and taking care of one another, displaying harmony. It's such a pleasant sight. :) 

I believe Mr LKY is glad to see this, that's why on the last day, it was raining. I kept telling my friends that LKY must be crying, he must be touched by what he has seen. 

On 29 March 2015, Sunday, WingTai instructed us to close the store at 4pm to have a 10 minutes silence to pay our final respect to Mr Lee. It was really awkward facing outside when shoppers walked past our store. I looked down on the floor and teared up. After 10 minutes had passed, we were instructed to keep the store closed until we were told to open it. Not knowing what to do, I suggested Masra to use her iPad to search for the live streaming of the whole ceremony. 

It was about 4:34PM we did our one minute of silence together with the live streaming, iPad in front of us (Masra was holding to it). After the one minute, it was cued for us to recite the Nation's Pledge. As I was reciting "We, the citizen of Singapore, pledge ourselves..." I broke into tears. There were only Venyz, Masra, Dinah and I in the store. Masra and I recite the pledge clearly but with our shaky voice. Masra's hand was shaking as she was crying. As mentioned in my Facebook post (screenshot above), I really missed saying the pledge and singing the National Anthem. As much as I really like to do it, I didn't feel as much as compared to the one on Sunday. I was feeling too overwhelmed with unexplained feelings. Despite our shaky voices and hurting hearts, Masra and I still managed to finished the Pledge and Anthem. I felt really proud. Prouder than usual. I believe this is the last thing we can do for Mr LKY. After the Anthem concludes, the announcer said "this marks the end of the ceremony and will proceed to a private funeral" or something like that, I can't really remember. 

We were instructed to open our store for operations again. After opening the glass doors, I couldn't contain my sadness and went in straight to the storeroom and cried with Masra. For people who know me, I'm very emotional and once I see someone crying, I would cry along too. I told Masra, "Why do I feel that I've lost someone close?" Sorry if you think I sound silly, but yeah I feel I've lost someone. But we collected our feelings, drank some water and Masra said "Come on, we can do this!" LOL guess what, she was still tearing up. However, after a while, we're alright again. 

I guess this one week has been an emotional ride for us, Singaporeans, as well as people all around the world. Needless to say, it must have been a painful one for PM LHL and his family. 

May you rest in peace, Sir Lee Kuan Yew. :)