Love.

How can loving someone hurt so much?
Sometimes people hold on because they love too much they can't bear to let go.
Sometimes people let go not because they don't love anymore. It's because they love you too fucking much but yet have no idea how to carry on.
When one stops making effort, how the other party carry on?
Just when will it be the limit.
It's true when people say don't love too much.

Tribute to Mr LKY

(Photo credit: Facebook)

Our founding father, Mr Lee Kuan Yew, has passed away peacefully on 23 March 2015 at 3:18AM.

Although I'm not directly related to him, I still feel the pain when I woke up to the news of his death. As I scrolled through Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, they are all filled with news of LKY. I read but decided to stop. This feeling is too overwhelming. :'(

I don't know what to say but we really have to thank him for his contribution to Singapore. He gave up his life to build a beautiful nation for us- Singapore, a place we call HOME. As much as we feel like complaining about all the high cost of living standard here, stop and think, we advanced from a third world country to the first. Thank you, "Grandpa" Lee Kuan Yew, for giving us a safe place to live in.

I felt guilty for not queuing to pay my last respect to him due to being busy with work and queuing overnight would definitely make me a zombie at work. It's until the one entire week that I've learnt more about Mr Lee and family. I've never been interested in history before. For the later half of the week, I started following up on his news on Facebook, sharing posts about him, his love story etc..
This picture here breaks my heart into tiny pieces. Just one simple picture can portray the entire feeling. It's too overwhelming. :'(

Sir, you've done your best and all for Singapore, for us. It's time for you to reunite with Mrs Lee. :')

His love story with his wife is definitely the true definition of #relationshipgoals! I was feeling super emotional that I've posted emotional posts on Facebook. I cried on Saturday night after watching a video on an interview with PM LHL. He cried. I cried at the sight of him wiping his tears and being strong again to finish up the interview. It's so heart breaking I couldn't forget how hurt he looked.

Later on that week, this 17-year-old celebrity wannabe posted a video to criticise LKY. What is he trying to prove? Well he got the guts to do it, I see how he face his lawsuit. Without LKY, how can he get such a good education and use all the bombastic words in the video? Seriously just wanna get famous. But boy, please mind your manners. Politics aside, this man here is a father, a grandfather, a husband and a son to his parents. Needless to say, he's an elderly. He's like 5 times of your age and bravo, you have no basic respect?! Wasted 17 years of rice to raise you up. I must pity your parents. 

This boy is none other than AMOS YEE. If I didn't recall wrongly, he had quite an attitude problem a few years back too. No idea why Jack Neo engaged him in one of his movies. Yeah well done Amos, you're infamous now :)

(Photo credits from Facebook)

Chanced upon this on Facebook that other day. It was seen that there's purple light over the casket. Symbolizing some good aura. I was telling Masra about this and she mentioned that while she's present at the site queuing, she felt it too, she felt the aura. Through this one week, Singaporeans came together as one, helping one another and taking care of one another, displaying harmony. It's such a pleasant sight. :) 

I believe Mr LKY is glad to see this, that's why on the last day, it was raining. I kept telling my friends that LKY must be crying, he must be touched by what he has seen. 

On 29 March 2015, Sunday, WingTai instructed us to close the store at 4pm to have a 10 minutes silence to pay our final respect to Mr Lee. It was really awkward facing outside when shoppers walked past our store. I looked down on the floor and teared up. After 10 minutes had passed, we were instructed to keep the store closed until we were told to open it. Not knowing what to do, I suggested Masra to use her iPad to search for the live streaming of the whole ceremony. 

It was about 4:34PM we did our one minute of silence together with the live streaming, iPad in front of us (Masra was holding to it). After the one minute, it was cued for us to recite the Nation's Pledge. As I was reciting "We, the citizen of Singapore, pledge ourselves..." I broke into tears. There were only Venyz, Masra, Dinah and I in the store. Masra and I recite the pledge clearly but with our shaky voice. Masra's hand was shaking as she was crying. As mentioned in my Facebook post (screenshot above), I really missed saying the pledge and singing the National Anthem. As much as I really like to do it, I didn't feel as much as compared to the one on Sunday. I was feeling too overwhelmed with unexplained feelings. Despite our shaky voices and hurting hearts, Masra and I still managed to finished the Pledge and Anthem. I felt really proud. Prouder than usual. I believe this is the last thing we can do for Mr LKY. After the Anthem concludes, the announcer said "this marks the end of the ceremony and will proceed to a private funeral" or something like that, I can't really remember. 

We were instructed to open our store for operations again. After opening the glass doors, I couldn't contain my sadness and went in straight to the storeroom and cried with Masra. For people who know me, I'm very emotional and once I see someone crying, I would cry along too. I told Masra, "Why do I feel that I've lost someone close?" Sorry if you think I sound silly, but yeah I feel I've lost someone. But we collected our feelings, drank some water and Masra said "Come on, we can do this!" LOL guess what, she was still tearing up. However, after a while, we're alright again. 

I guess this one week has been an emotional ride for us, Singaporeans, as well as people all around the world. Needless to say, it must have been a painful one for PM LHL and his family. 

May you rest in peace, Sir Lee Kuan Yew. :)

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So when MBD introduced the black mask, I feel like I should try it! With its improved formula, features and packaging, the enhanced mask range now features a uniquely patented ingredient - Cosphingo(TM) with long-lasting moisturizing property for improved hydration, enabling the skin to feel soft and supple.

It is totally different from the usual existing white masks that they have. Made of high-quality fine and smooth cotton fibres from Japan, this cotton sheet mask feels extremely gentle on the skin. It provides a perfect fit on my face and it's more comfortable than the white masks. 

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Okay you can't really see the difference but if you really see it, it's brighter on the right picture than one the left one (before I had the mask on). NO FILTER NO EDIT HOR. Although I'm damn insecure of my breakout marks but I just have to show how I really love MBD! ^_^

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(Click on above pic to enlarge) 

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Just recently, Cheryl introduced me to Palmer's oil because she said it's quite effective in removing scars so I thought I should just try it too. I've received this product from Samplestore just 3 days ago so I can't exactly do an accurate review of the before and after effect (Maybe after using for a month or so). After seeing this product, my mum wanted to give it a try too! Well, you don't have to apply a lot (because it's oil!) and it can be absorbed within a few hours. Normally I will apply before I head to bed so it can be fully absorbed through the night.

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Getting rid of the dust on my blog

As the title suggests, yup I felt the need to dust it away because I haven't been blogging for a long time and when I do, it's only advertorials. Well recently there isn't much advert that I can do and even so, I don't have the time and energy I guess?

So what have I been doing nowadays? Basically, rotting.

Job/ Education update: I'm still holding a part time job at Dorothy Perkins and just went for a staycation at Oasia Hotel with the fav people. For people who don't already know, I've passed my Strategic Marketing supplementary paper and I'm as good as graduated (just without the proper certificate yet). I've tried sending resumé for full time positions but only went for one interview and rejected other two because it seems quite shady. For that interview that I've gone to, their attitude suck! They are the one who approached me upon seeing my posted resumé. However, they questioned about my parents' educational levels and spoke to me in a despise manner after knowing that my parents didn't attain a higher education. What the fuck are you thinking? You are hiring ME or my PARENTS? How does my parents education determine my job performance? But anyway, I'm not taking up this job. This is PURE HUMILIATION. Well, it's okay I'm still looking out to potential jobs.

I'm so excited and overwhelmed with mixed feelings while awaiting the arrival of the convocation day! Well since the start of the year, people came into my life, people left as well. I thought some might make a mark in my life, but ended up I had a misconception about it. Well, life still goes on! Hell yeah I'm cool!

//Sidetrack//
I'm so thankful for two most attentive listeners, Val Seh and Monica. Without the both of you, I can't imagine what I will do to rant everything out, who to turn to for advice. Even though Monica is not good with words, but I really feel comfortable ranting everything to her. Monica is the only one who knows EVERYTHING about me all the way back since 2005 when we were still in Primary 6. Some friends of mine drifted away from me ever since they got attached. Well I was quite mad at first because I will never be one who abandon friends. But anyway I can't do much, can I? Really glad Monica chose to make an effort to cancel her plans with Pangwee sometimes just for me, BUT I DIDN'T ALLOW HER TO DO SO. I'm just as happy to know she went the extra mile for me and I'm really glad. Sorry Pangwee if I hogged Monica for too long before she meet up with you, teehee. 

As for Val, although we have been in a clique since 2009, we were never close. Never this close. We became closer just before she had to leave for Sweden for her studies exchange. But well, I will still Whats App her and update about my life and all. Really appreciate her taking off some time to reply me despite having time difference in Stockholm & Singapore. I can't wait for her to be back and we shall hang out more often!

Hobbies/ Interest update: I've kind of quitted Dreamwerkz. I've stopped dancing. If you don't already know, I injured my knee during one of the dance training and till now it's still not recovering. I've seen the doctor and gotten an X-Ray. Bones are perfectly fine but I guessed I pulled the ligament or something. I can't bend my right knee as much. I really like dancing since young but I don't exactly know which genre I enjoyed the most and I have difficulties coordinating my limbs. So, I'm kind of embarrassed. Damn, should have joined NRA when I was in Ngee Ann Poly. One of my life regrets.

Ah, I borrowed Ukulele from Val a month ago. Hmm, I'm really a master of none. Ashamed of myself.

Lifestyle update: I've received a call from True Fitness a month ago and was invited to have a 2-weeks trial to use the gym facilities and I can attend as many classes (eg. Yoga, Pilates, Zumba, Hiphop, Kpop, Piloxing) as I want. Thus, I dragged Cheryl along with me and we are currently in our second week of trial. Okay, it's damn expensive so yup, we just go for the trials but we really enjoyed Enqi's Piloxing classes and I really love Hot Yoga by Cindy. Guess I shall take classes outside of True Fitness. Anyway the consultant has an extremely bad attitude while attending to us, maybe just because she guessed as much that we're not keen in joining the club. But oh well done to your service attitude. She shared the same name as me by the way. I'm so ashamed. Tsk.

Cheryl and I have been exercise buddies since September last year but we got so lazy recently that we stopped meeting for our evening jogs. Partly due to my knee injury too, I can't run as good anymore. Sucks.

I can't think of anymore things to update, so I guess I shall stop here? Hopefully the next post will be something worth updating? *wink wink*

Reflecting on 2014

It has been a long time since I blogged an entry, other than those advertorials. First, wishing everyone a great Happy New Year 2015! I ended my NYE on a good note, at least, then started my first day of 2015 having a picnic at Marina Barrage with the girls whom stayed in my life for approximately 10 years. Thank god it didn't rain though!

Well, the past year had been quite a rough year for me, as usual. However, it's better than 2013, I would say. :)

2014 In A Nutshell

2014 was the year whereby there're tons and tons of 21st birthdays!
I switched my Yoguru job to WingTai (Dorothy Perkins) just because the franchise Yoguru closed down one by one.
It was also the year that I wanted to do better in dance, tried for Junior Audition (and failed), as well as Production Audition (and passed!).
The year I broke off friendship with someone and later on cleared the air (you know who you are), not being fake but I am actually glad we're back like before. ^^
DWZ dance production in August, great experience though I was so stressed up throughout the trainings/ bump-in days/ actual performance.
Knowing more people and some people left too. Got closer with some people and also drifted from some too.
The year I hit 21st, got wiser and think much more maturely even though I'm still behaving so crazily and like a child.
I got stronger physically through dance PT and feeling so good!
Yes, my biological brother is having a cold war with me for 3 months already. I cried. I don't know when will this end but I hope this will end soon. I can't confide in him anymore.
Last but not least, I encountered the FIRST EVER FAILURE in my entire life. I failed an exam. Since I was in my last semester before I can actually graduate, I was given a chance to retake a supplementary paper. I will never forget this module, STRATEGIC MARKETING. I iz haz no strategies at all! However, I passed my supplementary paper too. It was so damn difficult but I still managed to pass! So elated that I announced to all my friends!


Well, done talking about what 2014 had treated me with... Let's move on to what happened in 2014, as a whole. I was quite devastated to know about all the misfortunes that happened (even in the last week of 2014). I was so upset, I cried. I dreamt about it.

Cases of MH370, MH17, QZ 8501, Korea's Sewol Ferry and Typhoon... That's the fragility of life. When I read about news of how a brother sacrifice his life vest to his younger sister, I cried. (Sewol)
When I read about news of three victims holding hands together when their bodies have been found in the sea, I cried. (QZ8501)
There's more...

Have you ever thought that life is so fragile and there are so many unexpected events that can cost your life any moment? You wouldn't know if you can live to see tomorrow. Therefore, treasure every moments, with your family, loved ones, friends, etc...

You wouldn't know when's your last goodbye.

2014 has been full of ups and downs for me, for everyone else. We gained some, we lost some. What we gained might not always be positive, likewise, what we lost might not always be a loss. We gained insights even though we lose something. We learnt. We get exposed to experience, we become wiser than before. Thanks all for giving me room for growth, growing to be wiser, growing to learn that people are not always true to you. Trusting someone takes so long to build.

New year resolutions this year? Too lazy to list out. Basically, I want to be stronger than before (physically and mentally). Teehee, I want to train to have abs. I WILL TRY NOT TO BE LAZY OK.
I want to feel better. Oh, I have yet to ride a bike in 2014, okay this shall be my new year resolution. I will find a job and love it. I shall write daily diary, starting from day 1/365! Most importantly, be a much better person, to myself, to everyone. :)

Anyway, one of the changes I might make is to... quit Dreamwerkz. Well, still unsure if I should quit dancing.

Goodnight!